It might be that I have the Ironman blues but I really don’t like myself right now.

I hate the way I look.  I hate the person that I have become.  I want the old me back – the happy V.

I look at others and think how beautiful they are and how happy they are.

I don’t look good right now, I don’t feel great right now.   No matter what people say, I don’t believe them.

I feel for Matt – I don’t want him to come near me.  He understands.

Your sad Ironman x