It might be that I have the Ironman blues but I really don’t like myself right now.
I hate the way I look. I hate the person that I have become. I want the old me back – the happy V.
I look at others and think how beautiful they are and how happy they are.
I don’t look good right now, I don’t feel great right now. No matter what people say, I don’t believe them.
I feel for Matt – I don’t want him to come near me. He understands.
Your sad Ironman x