It might be that I have the Ironman blues but I really don’t like myself right now.
I hate the way I look. I hate the person that I have become. I want the old me back – the happy V.
I look at others and think how beautiful they are and how happy they are.
I don’t look good right now, I don’t feel great right now. No matter what people say, I don’t believe them.
I feel for Matt – I don’t want him to come near me. He understands.
Your sad Ironman x
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From reading your blogs you understand the condition you find yourself in. Draw on the knowledge, acknowledge the difficult feelings and find some help. In anyone’s book your achievements should make you feel proud, not the opposite.